Do you find it miraculous that your parents can make you cry with just a sentence…? Maybe even a word. It’s just that miraculous isn’t it? Well. My internet isn’t working. So now I’m on Microsoft. And it’s like. Correcting all my grammar and stuff. So. Well. I seem so ashamed of myself. Why did I not study? Gosh. I hate myself. And I hate my life. And I’m reading the bible. For some weird reason. It’s boring though. No offence. But it is. Though I’m more interested in the psalms than any other. But let’s see. I know why I’m reading it. Cause I’m trying to like.. understand The Da Vinci code. Though Sheryl did try to tell me once. I’m still lost. And now, I’ve just suddenly realized how important my brother is to me.. Somehow it’s cause he’s here that I’m happy.

I’m such a failure. I hate me.

Seriously. I doubt anyone’ll be able to help me if I don’t help myself.

Kill me will you.

I was like tuo-ing the time to walk home lor. I didn’t want to go home. Cause I knew that my dad was home and that I’d die immediately. Really.

So I went to Junction 8 with sushan, xinyu, and joyce. Then we walked around and then went to mac to eat. And we were all like joking round with sushan. Saying why so many people liked her.

So we made a song.

Xi Huan Su Shan by Weiting.

[Parody of Qi Qiu by Xu Zhe Pei]

Hei De Bai De Fei De Shou De Da Zhi Xiao Zhi Gao De Ai De

N A Express You Specs Mei Specs Tou Fa Jian De Huo Shi Bian De

Pai Gia Guai Gia In Between Gia

Quan Bu Dou Shi Shu Yu Su Shan Quan Bu Dou Shi Ren Ta Xuan Ze

Hei De Bai De Fei De Shou De Da Zhi Xiao Zhi Gao De Ai De

N A Express You Specs Mei Specs Tou Fa Jian De Huo Shi Bian De

Pai Gia Guai Gia In Between Gia

Quan Bu Dou Shi Shu Yu Su Shan Quan Bu Duo Shi Ren Ta Xuan Ze

Chao Duo Ren Dou Xi Huan Su Shan Ta Shi Chio Bu Da Jia Xi Huan

Zhe Xie Ren Jiu You Zhe Ji Ge Darren Guo Hao (Sompa) Nigel Alvin

Hai You Yi Ge Zhen Zai Ao Zhou Ta De Ming Zi Jiao (Timothy) Zhuo Timo

Ta Men Yuan Yi Xi Shen Zi Ji Jiu Shi Wei Le Zheng Qu Shen Li

Jiu Shi Xiang Yao De Dao Zhu Yi Ke Yi Gen Su Shan Zai Yi Qi

Da Jia Ping Ming Wei Le Nu Sheng Ke Yi Xi Shen Zi JI Xing Ming

Su Shan Dang Wo Nu You Dang Wo Ai Ren Rang Wo Ai Ni

Su Shan Zhen De Ai Ni Deng Ni Xiao Xi Deng Ni Da Ying

That’s just the version that I wrote when I got home. I finished that at like.. hurmm. 5:50? And then now it’s like. 8:33pm. Questions. Why? Why am I continuing it only now? Cause my mum got back at 5: 50. and she literally talked for a whole hour. She only stopped at 7:03pm when bao lian deng started. But then again. What she said does make sense. But she was humor-ish. She made weird noises while talking. And she was saying that I sing too much. Like la la la and the zao xia-ish voice of hers. Haha.. I doubt my dad’ll be the case.

I hate his temper. Which is why all these years I’ve never been close to him. Closer to my mum. And they say you can’t have faves.. well It’s not that I love him any less. But it’s hard to love someone who has as hot a temper as you.

When the both of us get fiery. I dunno how the hell I’m to communicate with him.

There’s only one thing I dun understand. And it’s why adults always reckon that we can’t have bad days at school or be angry.

Do we not have any frustrations?

It’s like. They can get angry and we can’t.

We have feelings too. It’s not only you guys that get hurt when we are giving you black faces.

When you guys are mad or frustrated and you throw your temper around. I dun like it either.

So why is it that I can’t get mad. Or be frustrated. If I get mad and throw my temper around. I’m being RUDE. Or I have NO MANNERS.

Where’s the sense in that.

If I had no respect for you. I would have left this house. OR. I would have started bashing you up. If you weren’t my dad. I dunno what would have happened to you.

And I’m not kidding.

Well. I’m making up my mind. That from next week onwards, I will spend 3 hours on my studies. And that’s 4pm to 7pm.

Just before my bao lian deng..

I will try harder..

I’m crappin a lot. And I have absolutely no idea how I am to post this without my internet.. so.. haix… jiu zhe yang ba…

.weiting.

24 May 2006

8:47pm

Internet’s still not working. But I’m still blogging. Wow. Like. On my computer. WHICH HAS NO INTERNET!

I feel so blessed.

Grr.

Well. Aunty jo has managed to clip off practically all my hair. Which is.. A LOT.. haha. And the newly cut “fringe” is taking awhile to get used to. So now it’s it a hair band above my head. =]]

Well. I don’t have much to blog on.. so..

Adios. Till my internet is back up.

.weiting.

25 May 2006

8:26pm